08.12.2024

it is so hard, trying to live up to this vision you have of me,

especially since i am not a very good actor,

trying to be superman.

i know that each day, you see the flaws: a crack here, a blemish there.

inevitabely, one day, your glasses will only see the flaws spite some of the beauty that is there.

and you will resent me for it.

just know:

i did the best that i could, and that is all we try to do.

i hope that i restrain my instinct to project myself onto you, that i let you find your own way in the world, free of my judgement. i know that is something that i still struggle with. i am going to attempt to break that cycle. and i will fail sometimes.

my hope is that one day, you will face the same struggle, and i will hand this cape over to you, with one major difference:

i know you can fly.